is the love gone? did the butterflies land? lately, that flutter in my stomach has been quiet and still... and my sighs have increased...my smile has vanished...and now there is a scowl...

his daughter. thats all I can say... our attempts to blend our girls, constantly keep hitting brick walls, because of our inconsistent way of saying no, i think.

thats another problem also.

first i wasn't able to aggressively say no to my daughter. then his turn..I spoil my daughters...its hard to keep the peace. the age difference is crazy. we are different. I can't be that mad, only because, we are different, but on the same issue, dont complain to me about what im doing if you are doing it as well. dont treat your 14 yr, old like i treat my 6 yr old.

thats a problem. treat your 14 yr old, like i treat my 14 yr old, and then we will both have an equal complaint.

If i encourage the relationship between my teenager and you, can you at least do the same?

i don't know how much more i can take, especially if she knows whats going on...how can i promise to love you, if we arent on the same team? how am i supposed to help raise your daughter, if you dont show her that you want me to? she has a mother (whenever she feels like it)...my girls dont have a father.

i dont know what to say to you anymore..i'm so digusted because of her... the way you treat her. the way you allow her this monarchy...almost. it seems petty, but it really isn't... its almost a waste of time. to go any futher... because the longer you allow this, the more resentment builds toward her...toward what is supposed to be...

just a few weeks ago, i was in love...and just like that...there is distraction...i'm still in love, but there are other emotions, that are distracting me...

man...